She Continues
I rited tonight, and I always underestimate the Guardians until I’m talking to them. BM always leaves me prone because I connect back to her and to the greater realities, but also I reconnect to myself. I disconnect during my day, pull away from the world and, in doing so, I pull away from and […] … Continue reading…The Guardians, Presence, Self-Love
I had second hand smoke in my shirt and sinuses last night, and I find myself trying to sneeze it out. It’s been a windy weekend, leading to a cold week next week. Last night, as we left [a small po’dunk town], I had the chance to look at the constellations above for a few […] … Continue reading…Charges, Spirit, Cosms
I rited last night. Primarily, I wanted to recenter and work on bridging. SS told me that the paths were important and that I should focus on understanding them. ShF and I spoke of the physical component of Presence, and I told him how I’d started to grow more conscious of it at [work]. It […] … Continue reading…Paths, The Shores, Practice Notes
I’m up at [café] on a Friday, finding myself otherwise free. I’m glad to say I framed the Morrigan blessing I received from Morpheus for supporting The Book of the Great Queen. I’ve placed it behind _______. On its own, it fills in on the altar nicely—the cherry wood frame working well, and I suppose […] … Continue reading…Icons, Presence, Old Geometries
It’s night again, early as the year winds down, and I dreamt of new versions of Hardûun: mazes as I tried to avoid killer, demon-possessed robots, but I even went into the maze because I felt I had to. More, I was in space, so there was a nominal dream vacuum outside. But it became […] … Continue reading…Dream & Persistence
I find myself anxious, some, about [work], but I feel I’m being too much, so. The energy we devote to teaching, to social lives, to looking/seeming/performing normalcy is so extensive, so costly. [Elethis] [ôl-vala/FitE] [lucid] [Corunor] At the same time, I also feel bad if I don’t push toward some grand arcane insight or if […] … Continue reading…Attention, Trance, Experientiality
I found myself fretting and feeling that gnawing fear-obligation in regards to [work], and I fought that off, as well as I could. It’s a consuming fear mingled with guilt and obligation and more. And I wonder, Why do I feel guilt and fear—and the fear of shame. I’ve been thinking about what CC calls […] … Continue reading…Attention, Bruno, Freya
That projection of vividly imagined—things, sights, sounds, sensations, is something everyone suggests as starting point or as kick-starter to magic. Thorn does so. So do others. I’ve found myself wondering about my disbelief and others’, and what I think happens—with worry about whether or not I’m being paid on the first, this revisits old anxieties […] … Continue reading…Counter ôl-vala, Rites, Chakra Notes, Bridging
I started to walk again last night, but I was falling asleep. I called the Guardians, and last night was about integration—integrating C-L L-C but also L-C C-L. Also, my own liminality as a topic came up, along with the crossroads I find myself occupying. In particular, I feel I’m straddling this realm and the […] … Continue reading…Integration, Reclamation, Transformation
It’s a chilly, rainy day today. As I went on the path last night, I noted the rhythm of K’s conversation with me, and I noted today while walking the rhythm of my walk, the sounds and traffic, the wind, etc. I’d noted the rhythm of my thoughts and the Otherworlds. K acknowledged this. I […] … Continue reading…Rhythms & Attention