She Continues
Figuring out how to live in the world as my self, as I want to live, mindful, magical,—at home, comfortable and confident in my skin—I’ve been struggling with that most of my life. I want to have the courage to at least act like I want to, to live magically, to feel free to feel […] … Continue reading…Stumbling towards Self-Possession
I feel out of sorts today. I went to bed too late, and I have enough tension about jaw, neck, shoulder that I’m just trying to unclench and to stop poking at the gums and wisdom tooth with my tongue. That said, hello, world. I’m internalizing enough stress that I’m not aware how much I […] … Continue reading…Confusion, Identity, Return to the Waters
I’ve dreamt a female ghost made my shadow look like it was playing a flute, and with _________, noted her presence in the flat in the corner, though I couldn’t see her. (Dream on 8/26) That morning, I thought I’d felt her in this flat—over at the balcony door while I was at my desk—but […] … Continue reading…Ghostly Dreams, Glamour & Ego, Grunting Out Magic Bricks
There is something in the woodsy labyrinth of streets nearby, lurking under the trees, among the trees. It’s tempting to perceive it as threatening, but as I reflected while walking—until my brain focused on Hot and Hot—what I might be sensing hiding with the trees is the Green itself, grumbling and whispering under the suburban […] … Continue reading…Local Spirits, Seasonal Surges
K and I looked through he Otherworld through [Elethis] last night—the woods seemed fractal at times, as if I were looking at the same tree & ground around it, with Elethis in the distance. At others, I could pause and try to see more detail, acclimate to the world much as Dunn suggests. Bruce Lee’s […] … Continue reading…Hardening, Softening, Desire, Anger
Last night I went to the glade, and Odin was there with the Morrigan, and I thanked him for his help & friendship as Authun. I then ventured with the Morrigan to Elethis to med and listen, Silence with the Tree—I dreamt of some general anxious dreams, thinking about the interview & potential job. The […] … Continue reading…Global, TOPY, Gods and Dragons, Feri
K & I spoke on the way home about the Otherworlds & Gods—the metaphors that can be used, at least. In one sense, the Worlds are narrative domains, interconnecting to each other through shared themes, associations, correspondences. The realms are alive, are sentient in their fashion. They are shaped by art & authorship, though, even […] … Continue reading…Gods, Elethis, and Connections
I feel anxious this morning—dreams about money stress and other halthaya things that try to drag my mind away from the Path I’ve set myself upon. It tries to draw me into isolation in my mind, in my head. My muscles have also wanted the chance to stretch and relax— Breathe, move, see the world […] … Continue reading…Trance, Otherworlds, Calling
Last night, I went into the glade, and then into Corunor. I found myself near the cottage again—I’m curious about it apparently, or it’s drawing/luring me. I flew off to the Crow sisters, and they were glad to see me, and everything seemed a bit more clear, more twilight than dark. The woods there remind […] … Continue reading…De Grandis, Grounding, Aligning
My dreams last night were full of meaning. Navigating sending my will and desire out into the Worlds, checking my desires are mine. Seeing the silence and subjection of […]. Even the academic dream—school as a prison for students (and myself as a well-treated prisoner)—and the coincidental encounter with _____ _________ of Psychology and more […] … Continue reading…Dreams, Desire, Incarnation