I find myself anxious, some, about [work], but I feel I’m being too much, so. The energy we devote to teaching, to social lives, to looking/seeming/performing normalcy is so extensive, so costly. [Elethis] [ôl-vala/FitE] [lucid] [Corunor] At the same time, I also feel bad if I don’t push toward some grand arcane insight or if […] … Continue reading…Attention, Trance, Experientiality