She Continues
This post begins a series on the Guardians, and this post serves as my overly broad introduction on that topic. My knowledge of the Feri Guardians comes primarily via T. Thorn Coyle, but with some inflection from other sources. I have learned that many Feri initiates considered the Guardians initiatory knowledge, lore only to be shared […] … Continue reading…The Guardians: Part One
Sometimes, aligning works. Othertimes, I feel like I’m pushing against blocks or aren’t connecting. This morning—and I’ve been far better about daily practice than I had a while back—I aligned, and I felt meh about it. I then recalled I wanted to send Y out on business. I began an act of power, and in […] … Continue reading…Practice, The Flow, Trance
On my walk today, I reflected and aligned and chatted with Y. The previous night, I dreamt—no, as I tranced into the Dark Wood, as I moved along the path, I had a sense of the enchantment process. We often draw down elthil into objects for various ends, and as I moved, I had a […] … Continue reading…Anger, Paths, Breathing
I—last night was odd, but today was also strange. I felt—I feel that the Otherworlds are closer than ever before, that I am more immersed in them, but also to the near world, into Haisuith. I aligned in my new way, interiorizing it, and I’m still adapting. It feels like I’ve reached some new level, […] … Continue reading…TTL, Dream, Guidance
I started to go into the Dark Wood, which seems brighter and closer now, last night, but I headed towards the cave to TTL. The path to TTL seems to begin on a plain and meadow with some sparse, young trees—grassy fields and maybe scrub—until you start passing larger trees and mounds and small hills. […] … Continue reading…TTL, Golden Dawn Initiation and Soul Work
I rited tonight, and I always underestimate the Guardians until I’m talking to them. BM always leaves me prone because I connect back to her and to the greater realities, but also I reconnect to myself. I disconnect during my day, pull away from the world and, in doing so, I pull away from and […] … Continue reading…The Guardians, Presence, Self-Love
deG’s notes on the dark heart remind me of my anger issues and lets me remember I want to express my anger far more assertively and calmly (rage is not the answer—rage is me not expressing my feelings to the point that they explode. And I was taught never to express feelings others might find […] … Continue reading…Anger, Anxiety, Mirrors
I had second hand smoke in my shirt and sinuses last night, and I find myself trying to sneeze it out. It’s been a windy weekend, leading to a cold week next week. Last night, as we left [a small po’dunk town], I had the chance to look at the constellations above for a few […] … Continue reading…Charges, Spirit, Cosms
I rited last night, mostly in trance and meditation. One thing I found myself doing was calling down coils of Luin for the gods and friends—hell, doing so for myself as a matter of praxis—which at least seems to help me. I asked the Morrigan for Her help in helping me remember what being a […] … Continue reading…Under Hill, Growing Dragons, Singles
I saw the wind blow oak leaves from trees like a shower of gold in to the autumn sunlight, and I felt panic for the trees, losing so much so fast—I felt sadness that soon the trees would be bare—no soughing, only the wind against my ears—and wonder at the sight of the rain that […] … Continue reading…Old Poetries, Faerie, Finds