She Continues
I remember reading Francesca de Grandis’s Be a Goddess!, and I remember coming across her notes on devotional offerings to the gods. De Grandis tells readers to “feed” the gods, that doing so is essential. And being the contrarian I can be, I stopped and questioned this need. Surely the gods don’t need to be […] … Continue reading…Gods & Devotion
On my walk today, I reflected and aligned and chatted with Y. The previous night, I dreamt—no, as I tranced into the Dark Wood, as I moved along the path, I had a sense of the enchantment process. We often draw down elthil into objects for various ends, and as I moved, I had a […] … Continue reading…Anger, Paths, Breathing
I did some simple med’n and relaxation last night. How I envision myself, how I feel about myself becomes just as important a part of the microcosm and the sphere of sensation as anything else I may put inside, that I may internalize. And for most people, the desiring machines and all that become demonic […] … Continue reading…Microcosms, Desiring Machines, Sex, Pressure
It’s a mild, autumn, cloudy morning. The clouds are low even as the sun tries to come out. [WtaW] deG, towards the end, writes something that helps cut past certain—things. Y told me how the sun is the burning core of elthil that provides most of the elthil for this star system, and this note […] … Continue reading…Mediating Gods & Otherworlds
I dreamt last night of split souls and doppelgangers—a Carol Danvers analogue going after the actress that plays her (who was Uma Thurman) in a comic book, and a kind of nano-tech/fiber Ultron spreading into people and growing schizophrenic. I suppose I think of it in terms of the second attention being seen as a […] … Continue reading…Split Attentions, Sex, Guides
deG’s notes on the dark heart remind me of my anger issues and lets me remember I want to express my anger far more assertively and calmly (rage is not the answer—rage is me not expressing my feelings to the point that they explode. And I was taught never to express feelings others might find […] … Continue reading…Anger, Anxiety, Mirrors
The skies are where I want to rise to, to climb Elethis into the skies. But the land also calls to me,—I want to explore them both, touch and hug the tress, soar through the clouds, walk the land to the sea—and I would even touch the waters, drink and swim. Hmm. I still feel […] … Continue reading…Align, Materialize, Sex, Shape
I did deG’s invocations of the SG and—well, that felt good enough that I did it two or three times. Afterwards, I tranced and went through the door again, to the Shores. Once there, I aligned, dancing in the blue rainbow faentaur and that also felt fantastic. It was night/dusk/pre-dawn, and I called T and […] … Continue reading…de Grandis Revisited, Imaginaries, Shaping
As I think about ôl-vala and the Otherworlds, it occurs to me that the spatial metaphors we’ve built up are limited flaws. Beyond the “here” and “there” issue, calling the Otherworlds is often visualized as pulling forces, elthil, whatever from someplace, along a path, and “here.” However, that’s still in the flawed spatial metaphor. Now, […] … Continue reading…Spatial Metaphors, Sounds, Kala Rite, Sacred Spaces
I went to the glade, but I was tired and sore. I sat with K for a time. The sky was darker than normal, and Elethis shadowed the sky. It is a mild morning, and I made the mistake of checking email and am now thinking about work to some degree. I did, though, recover […] … Continue reading…Relaxation, Magical Mottos, Astrologicals