She Continues
In waking up this morning, I felt anxious about money, work, today’s schedule, the looming fall schedule. I was aware that these felt like old, habitual fears,–the clenching from worry about my tooth, as well—but those things are what the energy work, med’n, aligning, and practice should help. Ground me in mindfulness, wholeness, connectedness, my […] … Continue reading…Worries, Embodied Practice, Elethis
My dreams were rich last night—the aquarium dream shows that although mean, aggressive weird fish/demons still lurk within, I’m aware of them far more than I was, and whatever I add or do for my self requires vigilance. And I need to reclaim and reform those “fish”—I shouldn’t want to get rid of them, big […] … Continue reading…Corunor, Shining, Time Lordy Costuming
Last night, the Morrigan wanted to rite with me, and we rose into the air (under Her power) as we did so. She told me the crow She gave me marks me as one of Hers, and I can use it to pass (mostly) unnoticed. I suspect its sight is less likely to be clouded […] … Continue reading…Reflection, Presence, The Morrigan
I realized just now that She’s [The Morrigan’s]—I’ve been looking towards Elethis and not seeing Her where She was—on the ground, smiling, dancing. But She is there. A different aspect, or the same. She stands in the rain, hair matted, smiling at me. But She’s on one of the branches of Elethis, watching with wet […] … Continue reading…Siddhi of the Gods, Dualism vs. Triune Logic, Reforming Demons
I feel as if the demons I’ve identified have started resisting, directing me towards my go-to emotion: anger. But my response to a lot of things has been anger—anger about being lonely, shamed-self-angry— I asked K to keep me out of the rain Friday morning. A lot of my recent energy feels ill-directed and unfocused, […] … Continue reading…Demons, Tree of Life, Presence
The moon is still mostly full, and it feels like late spring or October this morning. It occurred to me that my sense of the Otherworlds grew closer after several days of calling them into me, my life, and this world. Otherwise, last night She tested me in regards to my desires again, and the […] … Continue reading…Demons, Desires, Chief Demons
The moon is full this morning, and it occurs to me (and K concurred) that my sense of the Otherworlds’ closeness may be tied, connected the moon’s state. I’ve spelled for better understanding in this regard, as well.—I mean, we’re always told the lunar phase makes some magics easier, but why that’s the case—if it […] … Continue reading…Gods, Grimoires, Demons, Shadows
It’s [Feeling the Otherworlds is] a fantastic feeling and seems unprecedented, like a great moment of awareness, of realization of what you’ve been doing mattering, and there behind you, so close you can feel it and smell it, like fresh air, cool air. It’s like dipping into cool waters even as the wings unfurl. Relaxing […] … Continue reading…Refreshing Waters, Winds from the High Sky
I asked the Goddess for teaching dreams, mostly at Thorn’s book’s suggestion. The dreams were odd and vivid, likely inspired a bit by War of the Worlds, but a suggestion was there of keeping aware & in dialogue with what’s lurking in my subconscious. “Old Ones” and even the aquarium dreams are suggestive of anxieties, […] … Continue reading…Practice, Softening, Otherworlds
The other Crows told me, the night before last, that I was in a part of the ___ (not the whole ___, which apparently sprawls across the Worlds), and it is a gathering place for the Morrigan & her Crows & others. Each triad fulfills three roles, though I suspect those roles may vary from […] … Continue reading…Corunor, Warding Magic, the Divine Twins