Feather & Scale
A Crazy Wall of my own knot of synchronicities—associative, allusive, weaving a serpent journey, as the raven flies. … Continue reading…Feather & Scale
Re-Introduction, Premises, Declarations
[Most recently edited 9 December 2017] I began this blog—as “antiquated” a concept as blogs have become—because a god asked me to do so. So I did. I had been keeping a magical journal (“grimoire” as I pretentiously like to affect to myself—and sometimes here) back at some point prior to 2013. I began in […] … Continue reading…Re-Introduction, Premises, Declarations
Shadows, Cosms, the Lower Worlds
I had the impression that Freya went inside me, pushed and pulled my bodies— —and I have felt what my anxiety feels like after it’s been blunted, and I do not like it AT ALL. The physiological aspect/component feels like—feels corrosive, like hate did. Is anxiety a form of self-hatred? Hating yourself for doing what […] … Continue reading…Shadows, Cosms, the Lower Worlds
Attention, Bruno, Freya
I found myself fretting and feeling that gnawing fear-obligation in regards to [work], and I fought that off, as well as I could. It’s a consuming fear mingled with guilt and obligation and more. And I wonder, Why do I feel guilt and fear—and the fear of shame. I’ve been thinking about what CC calls […] … Continue reading…Attention, Bruno, Freya
Vocabulary, Action vs. Work, Mysticism vs. Religion
I find it hard to get through movies in theaters these days: the immersive experience leaves me feeling strange and disconnected, like something’s happening that I’m sensing but isn’t there. Goddess—well, the walk was hot but otherwise easy. I spent most of it thinking about body & the Otherworlds. I gave a defixio to the […] … Continue reading…Vocabulary, Action vs. Work, Mysticism vs. Religion
Dreaming, Intention, Ritual Frustration
I projected last night after my experience, a bit fragile still in my Presence. In the glade, I lounged briefly before going to the perch. Dana-Morrigan came, and we spoke. She agreed with many of my suppositions about Elethis and the Worlds. I wonder where I’m going— –I’ve been telling myself to check my hands […] … Continue reading…Dreaming, Intention, Ritual Frustration
Dana, The Morrigan, Defixiones
Dana’s names are many, and she reappears in the myths by many names and forms: Morrigan, Macha, Danu, Badb, Anu, Dôn, etc. The rivers, waters, woods, hills, mounts, from Asia (and Africa) to here. She is like Odin in a [“I can be a hungry dragon when I choose”] Way with her names, her children […] … Continue reading…Dana, The Morrigan, Defixiones
Hurur, Charting a Path, and Considering Silent Goddesses
Elaith—it doesn’t seem quite right—the “tower”—elaith-tir maybe? Hurur, Lies, these include the shells of identity that cling to us and which trick us into seeing them as true expressions or egos of self. Self-identification, especially reified, commodified selfhood. They come from without, imposed upon you and accepted—or they’re shells we fashion and adopt defensively or […] … Continue reading…Hurur, Charting a Path, and Considering Silent Goddesses
Spring and the Call to Art
Athene’s WTAW make me think of a leaf from a tree, and I wonder if it might be an olive leaf. Athene points to the active shaping of Chaos, but Odin and Freya (in particular) to the seidr breathing through Chaos. The world, everything, do not move—you do. You move and act—maneuver and position to […] … Continue reading…Spring and the Call to Art
Athene and the Sundered Veil
I called/invited Athena today, and last night I dedicated myself to Mabon and dedicated that wand I fashioned from the wood from Saerien’s wood. Athena showed me behind the “veil” and “curtain”—I had wondered yesterday where K. and my living enchantments “go” to do what they do—and all I could think was/see was a web […] … Continue reading…Athene and the Sundered Veil