She Continues
I’ve dreamt a female ghost made my shadow look like it was playing a flute, and with _________, noted her presence in the flat in the corner, though I couldn’t see her. (Dream on 8/26) That morning, I thought I’d felt her in this flat—over at the balcony door while I was at my desk—but […] … Continue reading…Ghostly Dreams, Glamour & Ego, Grunting Out Magic Bricks
Apocalyptic Paradoxes Leaving the movie I was struck by the fact that most of the stories people in our culture tell about organized resistance against oppression are set in dystopias created in the wake of a cataclysm. And indeed, apocalyptic events seem to be the only thing most people believe can bring an end to […] … Continue reading…Apocalypse, the Future, Capitalism
There is something in the woodsy labyrinth of streets nearby, lurking under the trees, among the trees. It’s tempting to perceive it as threatening, but as I reflected while walking—until my brain focused on Hot and Hot—what I might be sensing hiding with the trees is the Green itself, grumbling and whispering under the suburban […] … Continue reading…Local Spirits, Seasonal Surges
When I consider my dreams where I can’t use a weapon, fight, or drive, I wonder—or I have wondered having these dreams of late, if I am frustrated by a lack of perceived power and independence on my part, that I consciously want to ascribe this to some view of how I should be […]. […] … Continue reading…Pop-Culture TV Dreaming, Microcosming, Waymaking
Getting 8 hours of sleep for a couple of nights in a row shows me I’m dreaming most of the night and can remember a lot. My dream about competing for my body with another—tells me integration is still something to work on, tells me I worry over how I perform myself— Bridging and sustaining […] … Continue reading…Sleep, Bridging, Practice
[Several abbreviated entries precede this entry as I prepared for new job at that point in time.] I rited tonight. I’ve been fretting over having time to do so, which I feel is foolish, but it is something I want to address. I chatted about it with K while walking, resulting in a general “Don’t […] … Continue reading…Intermediary
I’m not sure of the best ways to deal with the LW other than vigilance and focus and energy work. The nature of the draw is ambiguous, though it feels like a draw or lure, like gravity or a decline as you go down a hill. There is the entropy association—and you can try to […] … Continue reading…Lower Worlds, The Dead, Potentiality
Last night in the glade, K and I quickly found ourselves in one of my institutional dreams—and I trusted to him as a guide. My Presence as […] caused some reactions—muted reactions, still—from the dream personae. He counseled me to try to find my way outside. So I went to a window that looked like […] … Continue reading…Institutional Dreaming, Institutional Spaces, The Dead
Like any oppressive discourse, discourses of neurotypicality hurt everyone. They constrain the words and thoughts and behavior of Autistic and non-Autistic people. My friend jim mcdonald recently suggested that we should replace the word “neurotypical” with the word “neurodomesticated,” which conveys the reality that discourses of neurotypicality are really all about enforcing compliance with social […] … Continue reading…Hurur, Mul-Ol, Capitalism
In the glade, I kept drifting into hypnogogic states as dreams crept in. K thinks I might try riding that rather than fighting it or feeling bad about doing so. I want lucidity, so—also, I haven’t been trying to direct my dreams. I’m still in my houses, rooms, and institutions. Before going down into bed, […] … Continue reading…Matter-Spirit, Imaginary, Paxson, Meander