She Continues
I rited last night. Primarily, I wanted to recenter and work on bridging. SS told me that the paths were important and that I should focus on understanding them. ShF and I spoke of the physical component of Presence, and I told him how I’d started to grow more conscious of it at [work]. It […] … Continue reading…Paths, The Shores, Practice Notes
I found myself fretting and feeling that gnawing fear-obligation in regards to [work], and I fought that off, as well as I could. It’s a consuming fear mingled with guilt and obligation and more. And I wonder, Why do I feel guilt and fear—and the fear of shame. I’ve been thinking about what CC calls […] … Continue reading…Attention, Bruno, Freya
The trance last night took some time to get into, and the “seizures” and convulsions and other effects,—trouble focusing my vision, closing and clutching my eyes, clutching my head,—I think that has to do with reconciling the split perceptions, visual and kinesthetic, in particular—we’re still figuring out how to bridge, but we want it. I […] … Continue reading…Communing, Bridging, Automatic Writing
I went into the Dream, the Otherworlds last night, and I could feel how aligning helps, and more so today when I went on my walk. More pertinently, having considered WoW and gaming, I spoke with K about how gaming distracts from magic and the Otherworlds. K notes that gaming engages the imagination and the […] … Continue reading…Gaming, Otherworlds, Bridging
[Several abbreviated entries precede this entry as I prepared for new job at that point in time.] I rited tonight. I’ve been fretting over having time to do so, which I feel is foolish, but it is something I want to address. I chatted about it with K while walking, resulting in a general “Don’t […] … Continue reading…Intermediary
It’s rainy today. I’m having a hard time unwinding at home, med’n before bed, and I feel I’m resisting it before bed. It’s actually easier in the morning, though wondering about work today had me feeling distracted. I think, feel, I should address Elethis more often than I do—that Elethis’s presence represents something more immediate […] … Continue reading…Elethis, Call, Silence
The Otherworlds feel close today, and Elethis clearer and closer, the woods at hand. Last night I mostly chilled. —Nature and the Otherworlds are highly related, and in part, this stems from the Gaia-spirit of life on this world, though the stars and greater universe still have their life processes and dreams. The life of […] … Continue reading…Nature, Softening, Gods
Last night, I flew to the clouds and lounged with the Morrigan on Elethis, her in her headdress—but I find I can also call such a headdress, which also shadows my sight. [I think the Raven makes this so—] The clouds are the very edges of the Higher Worlds, but I can see the merits […] … Continue reading…Castaneda, Multiverse, All the Corvids!
I feel a bit out of a loss since, disconnected since Saturday night. This means I should relax and practice, align, and banish ____ the third time. Minor alcohol poisoning will disrupt your chi, I guess. One lesson that emerges from Saturday is that I do have my pantheon of friends—even when I don’t realize or […] … Continue reading…Social Groups & Recovery
I called/invited Athena today, and last night I dedicated myself to Mabon and dedicated that wand I fashioned from the wood from Saerien’s wood. Athena showed me behind the “veil” and “curtain”—I had wondered yesterday where K. and my living enchantments “go” to do what they do—and all I could think was/see was a web […] … Continue reading…Athene and the Sundered Veil