She Continues
I first came across the idea of working with “dead magicians” via Radio Free Golgotha—Al Cummins and Jesse Hathaway Diaz. Indeed, one of RFG’s features is a discussion of a specific dead magician in most episodes, and dead magicians can include far more mythic persons than the “ghosts” of “historical” magicians. I mean, let me […] … Continue reading…Dead Magicians
“My Faerie Queen,” my “Queen Mab”—I keep trying to find names for her, but I wonder if the first one I pulled forth years and years ago is best. In a journey a few months back, I asked her what she might like as offerings. She said, pine nuts and honey. But the other night, […] … Continue reading…Eruptions & Surfaces
Ivo Dominguez, Jr. in Casting Sacred Space recommends—I’ll call it an exercise—but he recommends engaging in your own mythopoeisis. Write your own myths. Reach inside and articulate your myths. Now, I’ve recently done something similar as a series of trance utterances that remind me of the rune poems—my powers and abilities and tricks and knacks […] … Continue reading…Myth, Belief, Art
[Most recently edited 9 December 2017] I began this blog—as “antiquated” a concept as blogs have become—because a god asked me to do so. So I did. I had been keeping a magical journal (“grimoire” as I pretentiously like to affect to myself—and sometimes here) back at some point prior to 2013. I began in […] … Continue reading…Re-Introduction, Premises, Declarations
It’s night again, early as the year winds down, and I dreamt of new versions of Hardûun: mazes as I tried to avoid killer, demon-possessed robots, but I even went into the maze because I felt I had to. More, I was in space, so there was a nominal dream vacuum outside. But it became […] … Continue reading…Dream & Persistence
I had the impression that Freya went inside me, pushed and pulled my bodies— —and I have felt what my anxiety feels like after it’s been blunted, and I do not like it AT ALL. The physiological aspect/component feels like—feels corrosive, like hate did. Is anxiety a form of self-hatred? Hating yourself for doing what […] … Continue reading…Shadows, Cosms, the Lower Worlds
Figuring out how to live in the world as my self, as I want to live, mindful, magical,—at home, comfortable and confident in my skin—I’ve been struggling with that most of my life. I want to have the courage to at least act like I want to, to live magically, to feel free to feel […] … Continue reading…Stumbling towards Self-Possession
I feel out of sorts today. I went to bed too late, and I have enough tension about jaw, neck, shoulder that I’m just trying to unclench and to stop poking at the gums and wisdom tooth with my tongue. That said, hello, world. I’m internalizing enough stress that I’m not aware how much I […] … Continue reading…Confusion, Identity, Return to the Waters
There is something in the woodsy labyrinth of streets nearby, lurking under the trees, among the trees. It’s tempting to perceive it as threatening, but as I reflected while walking—until my brain focused on Hot and Hot—what I might be sensing hiding with the trees is the Green itself, grumbling and whispering under the suburban […] … Continue reading…Local Spirits, Seasonal Surges
When I consider my dreams where I can’t use a weapon, fight, or drive, I wonder—or I have wondered having these dreams of late, if I am frustrated by a lack of perceived power and independence on my part, that I consciously want to ascribe this to some view of how I should be […]. […] … Continue reading…Pop-Culture TV Dreaming, Microcosming, Waymaking