She Continues
I found myself fretting and feeling that gnawing fear-obligation in regards to [work], and I fought that off, as well as I could. It’s a consuming fear mingled with guilt and obligation and more. And I wonder, Why do I feel guilt and fear—and the fear of shame. I’ve been thinking about what CC calls […] … Continue reading…Attention, Bruno, Freya
As I think about ôl-vala and the Otherworlds, it occurs to me that the spatial metaphors we’ve built up are limited flaws. Beyond the “here” and “there” issue, calling the Otherworlds is often visualized as pulling forces, elthil, whatever from someplace, along a path, and “here.” However, that’s still in the flawed spatial metaphor. Now, […] … Continue reading…Spatial Metaphors, Sounds, Kala Rite, Sacred Spaces
From “Vignettes on Death, Gods, and Bridges“: The tone had been instantly set for my Work in this new place, and the very first action I took even before signing the least was to make offerings at the bases of both bridges. I thanked the bridges for their presence and their function, I made prayers […] … Continue reading…The Otherworlds and Here
How do I call weird shit into my life? Previously, I think I just did, and within days or weeks, without expecting it, weird shit would start to occur. K notes it’s not hard to get the attention of the Otherworlds, and most people want it to go back away. Doing the Otherworldly, calling the […] … Continue reading…Trafficking with the Otherworlds, Will vs. Order, Winds
I went in on the 8th, the night of, and K and I made our way to the Dark Wood and up Elethis. As I made my way up the Root and then the Trunk, I became aware of a wind blowing down and out from the HW and how my wings unfurled from it, […] … Continue reading…Trancing, Spatial Metaphors
One thing I’ve tried to do has been to use public domain, CC-licensed, or my own images for posts. If you’ve paid attention to this site, I typically cycle through several images. For the Creative Commons licensed images, I was very good and added the sorts of information that seemed in compliance with the license–at […] … Continue reading…Image-Meta
I feel far better today, and my sense of sliding into an Otherworldly mind is even more present. It’s like I’m gliding along the edge of awareness of the Otherworlds and what I do within them, what I do that I’ve only have felt fleeting impressions of previously. It’s almost as if feeling like shit […] … Continue reading…Otherworldly Mind, Seasons, Tunneling
It’s a nice morning, but I want more clouds. Illness tends to magnify the body and the most basic needs and senses. Accordingly, people who can’t get treated have a harder time. I can call down Faentaur, and that helps, and I can imagine were I still smoking. My head feels congested, and that slows […] … Continue reading…Illness, Qlippoth, Metaphors
Things vary. And they often vary in relation to the effort I make to stay self-possessed. I aligned and even did a wee bit of energy work this morning, and it’s been better than many Mondays. It’s weird to imagine an empowered, self-possessed, magical, […] me here. And that’s part of the trap and the […] … Continue reading…Framing and Shaping
My automatic writing exercise went a bit differently than I expected, but I find the results interesting. I find myself anxious in the mornings because [elements of work] seems often capriciously incompetent. Her [M/C] use of “shoal” strikes me as interesting, but it makes a certain sense. The waters reflect all we could be or […] … Continue reading…Rambling Self-Reflection, Aurics