She Continues
I spent the day [working], and it was cold this morning, so I did not do my usual morning journaling, but I am outside now at night, and it is quiet. The moon is out and waxing and bright, and I feel especially—“me,” myself, C-L L-C now. Elethis is clear to me, and I can […] … Continue reading…Warrens & Dreams
I rited last night for Samhain. Lots of anxiety about [work], pay checks, and more. This hindered me last night—along with ________’s scheming. It’s cold this morning, so I am indoors—and not getting my usual outdoor morning chill-time on a Saturday. Nonetheless, WM asked me what I saw in the waters, and I saw the […] … Continue reading…Samhain, Wholeness, Truth
I found myself fretting and feeling that gnawing fear-obligation in regards to [work], and I fought that off, as well as I could. It’s a consuming fear mingled with guilt and obligation and more. And I wonder, Why do I feel guilt and fear—and the fear of shame. I’ve been thinking about what CC calls […] … Continue reading…Attention, Bruno, Freya
It’s a nice morning, but I want more clouds. Illness tends to magnify the body and the most basic needs and senses. Accordingly, people who can’t get treated have a harder time. I can call down Faentaur, and that helps, and I can imagine were I still smoking. My head feels congested, and that slows […] … Continue reading…Illness, Qlippoth, Metaphors
Last night I went to the glade, and Odin was there with the Morrigan, and I thanked him for his help & friendship as Authun. I then ventured with the Morrigan to Elethis to med and listen, Silence with the Tree—I dreamt of some general anxious dreams, thinking about the interview & potential job. The […] … Continue reading…Global, TOPY, Gods and Dragons, Feri
I want to better understand and grasp Thorn’s elthil cycling practice and the shining/brightening glamour practice. Last night I danced in Corunor as S played the drum and V, myself, and finally the Morrigan danced about the fire the sisters set. While at the [pub] last night, I noted that while Present with my cycling […] … Continue reading…Shining, Aspiration, Desire & Will
My dreams were rich last night—the aquarium dream shows that although mean, aggressive weird fish/demons still lurk within, I’m aware of them far more than I was, and whatever I add or do for my self requires vigilance. And I need to reclaim and reform those “fish”—I shouldn’t want to get rid of them, big […] … Continue reading…Corunor, Shining, Time Lordy Costuming
Last night, the Morrigan wanted to rite with me, and we rose into the air (under Her power) as we did so. She told me the crow She gave me marks me as one of Hers, and I can use it to pass (mostly) unnoticed. I suspect its sight is less likely to be clouded […] … Continue reading…Reflection, Presence, The Morrigan
The moon is full this morning, and it occurs to me (and K concurred) that my sense of the Otherworlds’ closeness may be tied, connected the moon’s state. I’ve spelled for better understanding in this regard, as well.—I mean, we’re always told the lunar phase makes some magics easier, but why that’s the case—if it […] … Continue reading…Gods, Grimoires, Demons, Shadows
The other Crows told me, the night before last, that I was in a part of the ___ (not the whole ___, which apparently sprawls across the Worlds), and it is a gathering place for the Morrigan & her Crows & others. Each triad fulfills three roles, though I suspect those roles may vary from […] … Continue reading…Corunor, Warding Magic, the Divine Twins