She Continues
I did some simple med’n and relaxation last night. How I envision myself, how I feel about myself becomes just as important a part of the microcosm and the sphere of sensation as anything else I may put inside, that I may internalize. And for most people, the desiring machines and all that become demonic […] … Continue reading…Microcosms, Desiring Machines, Sex, Pressure
deG’s notes on the dark heart remind me of my anger issues and lets me remember I want to express my anger far more assertively and calmly (rage is not the answer—rage is me not expressing my feelings to the point that they explode. And I was taught never to express feelings others might find […] … Continue reading…Anger, Anxiety, Mirrors
It has been almost two months.[1] I hurt my shoulder and hit a lull in the stress that shifted into various panics about health and finances. Halthaya is a fucking horrid thing, that drags you back and down into the malaise. I’m really feeling that old, tiring, tired anxiety. Loneliness has also weighed against me. […] … Continue reading…Long Dark Couple of Months of the Soul