She Continues
For me, the point isn’t transcendence, which I see as abandoning this reality and life (or trying to). The point is to live here as yourself, as who you wish to live and act as. Either path is pretty damn difficult: the problems that Body encounters, finding yourself ignorant of or divorced from Fetch, having […] … Continue reading…Body, Fetch, Talker, God Soul, and: Part 7: And—
It’s Samhain, and I feel a little antsy. I want to have more of a notion what I want to do tonight. Communion with the Otherworlds, for one, but I also want to re-dedicate, if not dedicate myself, to the Path, to bridging, to the relationship I have with the Morrigan and Angus, and to […] … Continue reading…Tall Bright Shapes
The trance last night took some time to get into, and the “seizures” and convulsions and other effects,—trouble focusing my vision, closing and clutching my eyes, clutching my head,—I think that has to do with reconciling the split perceptions, visual and kinesthetic, in particular—we’re still figuring out how to bridge, but we want it. I […] … Continue reading…Communing, Bridging, Automatic Writing
I’ve dreamt a female ghost made my shadow look like it was playing a flute, and with _________, noted her presence in the flat in the corner, though I couldn’t see her. (Dream on 8/26) That morning, I thought I’d felt her in this flat—over at the balcony door while I was at my desk—but […] … Continue reading…Ghostly Dreams, Glamour & Ego, Grunting Out Magic Bricks
[Several abbreviated entries precede this entry as I prepared for new job at that point in time.] I rited tonight. I’ve been fretting over having time to do so, which I feel is foolish, but it is something I want to address. I chatted about it with K while walking, resulting in a general “Don’t […] … Continue reading…Intermediary
Last night I went to the glade, and Odin was there with the Morrigan, and I thanked him for his help & friendship as Authun. I then ventured with the Morrigan to Elethis to med and listen, Silence with the Tree—I dreamt of some general anxious dreams, thinking about the interview & potential job. The […] … Continue reading…Global, TOPY, Gods and Dragons, Feri
Last night, the Morrigan and I spoke of my Presence in the Otherworlds and here on Earth, that connecting both worlds—Bridging—is important. Otherwise, I experienced odd shifts in scale—growing titanic, Elethis visible, and—well, my godlike potentiality— In invoking [Elethis] I’ve been seeing woods around me, Elethis rising titanic in the distance. These seem thicker, fuller […] … Continue reading…Trance, Social World, Identity, Silence
Last night, the Morrigan wanted to rite with me, and we rose into the air (under Her power) as we did so. She told me the crow She gave me marks me as one of Hers, and I can use it to pass (mostly) unnoticed. I suspect its sight is less likely to be clouded […] … Continue reading…Reflection, Presence, The Morrigan
The moon is full this morning, and it occurs to me (and K concurred) that my sense of the Otherworlds’ closeness may be tied, connected the moon’s state. I’ve spelled for better understanding in this regard, as well.—I mean, we’re always told the lunar phase makes some magics easier, but why that’s the case—if it […] … Continue reading…Gods, Grimoires, Demons, Shadows
I left my defixio for my mouth at “Underbridge”—we’ll see how things look soon. Otherwise, I’ve been transcribing old grimoire, the first one, and I’ve been seeing old threads & lessons I keep—well, I’ve relearned with renewing the practice since February. But I’ve also seen that the Dark Host and flesh beasts have been after […] … Continue reading…Defixiones, Community Longings, Otherworldly Journeys, Gods & Earth