She Continues
I dreamt of Doctor Who and computers last night. I think I had glimpsed last night’s revelations on noticing how free and magical I felt in admitting to myself—, in calling down the blue rainbow light, the faentaur, in letting myself change and immerse myself in it and the Otherworlds and ôl-vala, in wanting and […] … Continue reading…Practice, Goddess Being, Art & Magic
I rited last night. Primarily, I wanted to recenter and work on bridging. SS told me that the paths were important and that I should focus on understanding them. ShF and I spoke of the physical component of Presence, and I told him how I’d started to grow more conscious of it at [work]. It […] … Continue reading…Paths, The Shores, Practice Notes
I rited some last night, cutting to the chase to med’te and honor the pantheon. I spelled for leaving and breaking out of Hardûun, but I also wound up prepping for trance. Indeed, I think I focused on bridging, on seeing the paths— —in trance, I easily and quickly found my way to the stream—the […] … Continue reading…Musings on Trance Work, Practice
I dreamt last night I went to [my parents’] house, had made some food for myself and for dad, and then wandered through a door into [a previous house we lived in]—finding a crowded landscape: my “room” there with furniture, stereo equipment, and toys and books, much of it junk, but just so cluttered that […] … Continue reading…Dream, Memory, Reflection
How do I call weird shit into my life? Previously, I think I just did, and within days or weeks, without expecting it, weird shit would start to occur. K notes it’s not hard to get the attention of the Otherworlds, and most people want it to go back away. Doing the Otherworldly, calling the […] … Continue reading…Trafficking with the Otherworlds, Will vs. Order, Winds
The trance last night took some time to get into, and the “seizures” and convulsions and other effects,—trouble focusing my vision, closing and clutching my eyes, clutching my head,—I think that has to do with reconciling the split perceptions, visual and kinesthetic, in particular—we’re still figuring out how to bridge, but we want it. I […] … Continue reading…Communing, Bridging, Automatic Writing
We went walking last night in the dark at the park, and it was good for the most part—cool, breezy, amongst the trees in the dark—it was a kind of exploration none of us have done lately, since we went along Saerien and into the wilder parts of the trail. I have otherwise been generating […] … Continue reading…Night, Practice, Trance
In the glade, I kept drifting into hypnogogic states as dreams crept in. K thinks I might try riding that rather than fighting it or feeling bad about doing so. I want lucidity, so—also, I haven’t been trying to direct my dreams. I’m still in my houses, rooms, and institutions. Before going down into bed, […] … Continue reading…Matter-Spirit, Imaginary, Paxson, Meander
I went to the glade last night, and the Morrigan asked me more of my will to magic & power and why I wanted wonders and more. Because I can do so, because I want the Otherworlds and power and freedom, because I defy the limitations of this world on me. She took me to […] … Continue reading…Perfection, Evil, Giants
Last night I went to the glade, and Odin was there with the Morrigan, and I thanked him for his help & friendship as Authun. I then ventured with the Morrigan to Elethis to med and listen, Silence with the Tree—I dreamt of some general anxious dreams, thinking about the interview & potential job. The […] … Continue reading…Global, TOPY, Gods and Dragons, Feri