She Continues
I felt trepidation about Black Mother the first time I called to her, and I felt more trepidation about Fire in the Earth. In hindsight, this trepidation came out of Talker/Dariar and my unconscious resistance to the kinds of transformation Fire in the Earth can cause, will likely cause. I have to admit that T […] … Continue reading…The Guardians: Part Five: Fire in the Earth, Center, and Closing Thoughts
I—last night was odd, but today was also strange. I felt—I feel that the Otherworlds are closer than ever before, that I am more immersed in them, but also to the near world, into Haisuith. I aligned in my new way, interiorizing it, and I’m still adapting. It feels like I’ve reached some new level, […] … Continue reading…TTL, Dream, Guidance
I started to go into the Dark Wood, which seems brighter and closer now, last night, but I headed towards the cave to TTL. The path to TTL seems to begin on a plain and meadow with some sparse, young trees—grassy fields and maybe scrub—until you start passing larger trees and mounds and small hills. […] … Continue reading…TTL, Golden Dawn Initiation and Soul Work
I rited tonight, and I always underestimate the Guardians until I’m talking to them. BM always leaves me prone because I connect back to her and to the greater realities, but also I reconnect to myself. I disconnect during my day, pull away from the world and, in doing so, I pull away from and […] … Continue reading…The Guardians, Presence, Self-Love
I had second hand smoke in my shirt and sinuses last night, and I find myself trying to sneeze it out. It’s been a windy weekend, leading to a cold week next week. Last night, as we left [a small po’dunk town], I had the chance to look at the constellations above for a few […] … Continue reading…Charges, Spirit, Cosms
I rited last night, mostly in trance and meditation. One thing I found myself doing was calling down coils of Luin for the gods and friends—hell, doing so for myself as a matter of praxis—which at least seems to help me. I asked the Morrigan for Her help in helping me remember what being a […] … Continue reading…Under Hill, Growing Dragons, Singles
I saw the wind blow oak leaves from trees like a shower of gold in to the autumn sunlight, and I felt panic for the trees, losing so much so fast—I felt sadness that soon the trees would be bare—no soughing, only the wind against my ears—and wonder at the sight of the rain that […] … Continue reading…Old Poetries, Faerie, Finds
That projection of vividly imagined—things, sights, sounds, sensations, is something everyone suggests as starting point or as kick-starter to magic. Thorn does so. So do others. I’ve found myself wondering about my disbelief and others’, and what I think happens—with worry about whether or not I’m being paid on the first, this revisits old anxieties […] … Continue reading…Counter ôl-vala, Rites, Chakra Notes, Bridging
K and I looked through he Otherworld through [Elethis] last night—the woods seemed fractal at times, as if I were looking at the same tree & ground around it, with Elethis in the distance. At others, I could pause and try to see more detail, acclimate to the world much as Dunn suggests. Bruce Lee’s […] … Continue reading…Hardening, Softening, Desire, Anger
I went into the glade last night, and the Morrigan said the White Mount—what I immediately see is just part of the mountain, and She says there is a city of gods in, on, around the Mount, so it is a potentially dangerous place to go visit. [And well, it’s a lawful Axis Mundi.] I […] … Continue reading…Axis Mundi, Aurics, Four Sphinxes