She Continues
I’ll share a couple of photos here with you. I’ve been trying to scribble into journals for ages. Here in the first photo, you can see a motley collection. The leftmost six are old magical journals from mostly the ’90s, and most of them are not full. I got most of those little journals at […] … Continue reading…Marking Time, Counting Books
Sleight of mind is also very important for seeing and working with Chaos—this is why theatricality is important. Parting the Veil, but sometimes it’s not that easy, and I feel like there’s a way to trip over across a threshold into it—or elsewhere. Part of it is familiarity, knowing and recognizing and reproducing the states […] … Continue reading…Perception & Otherworlds
I have to realize that I am not alone, that I have never been “alone”—I may often feel alone, may find myself physically isolate, but I am rarely actually alone unless I make myself or mistake myself alone. I walk with a pantheon of gods and dragons, family and friends, and imaginary friends. Too often […] … Continue reading…Hegel and Adorno and Actuality
The devil, the lord of entropy—the demonic face of self and identity that can help break one’s preconceptions and blocks, but you have to avoid giving it free reign, just so you avoid obsession— —and there it is, the demon, or one of them, resembling me but as a spider, multiple spider eyes, arachnid legs, human arms, […] … Continue reading…Spider Demon
I called/invited Athena today, and last night I dedicated myself to Mabon and dedicated that wand I fashioned from the wood from Saerien’s wood. Athena showed me behind the “veil” and “curtain”—I had wondered yesterday where K. and my living enchantments “go” to do what they do—and all I could think was/see was a web […] … Continue reading…Athene and the Sundered Veil
Mabon, Shining God, Bright One, the blesséd special child who is born in strange circumstances. He becomes New Persons over time. He is a Seeker, the Young Seeker who strives to know and to do. But he’s not just the Youth or Child. In a sense, Mabon also becomes Taliesin and arguably other, mature, mystic […] … Continue reading…Mabon, Familiar, and Magic
While exercising (sit-ups) while “O Fortuna” came on, I became aware of my Wyrd—at the time I perceived it as some thing like a long fibrous trunk extending before my vision at an angle— [sketch] —sort of like so. Imagine seeing a strand of hair highly magnified, or something like an artery. A root. Tonight […] … Continue reading…Wyrd, Action, and Authun
I have let myself fall away from my practice. I probably needed a few days of extra sleep, and I probably need to vary my practice—but I went through a period of relative calm that fell away, and I’ve needed to relax and focus energy. I have been expending energy on fear & obsessive thoughts—not […] … Continue reading…Water, Selfhood, & Chaos
It has been almost two months.[1] I hurt my shoulder and hit a lull in the stress that shifted into various panics about health and finances. Halthaya is a fucking horrid thing, that drags you back and down into the malaise. I’m really feeling that old, tiring, tired anxiety. Loneliness has also weighed against me. […] … Continue reading…Long Dark Couple of Months of the Soul
It took the man who was _____ mentioning it for me to realize, but Beltane is upon me—and this makes sense. It feels like it should be Beltane. But how is it so? Is this day different? Yes. I knew it was a good day before I set out, but I was distracted by setting […] … Continue reading…Holy Days, Energy, and Meditation