She Continues
I felt trepidation about Black Mother the first time I called to her, and I felt more trepidation about Fire in the Earth. In hindsight, this trepidation came out of Talker/Dariar and my unconscious resistance to the kinds of transformation Fire in the Earth can cause, will likely cause. I have to admit that T […] … Continue reading…The Guardians: Part Five: Fire in the Earth, Center, and Closing Thoughts
My early experiences with the Guardians proceeded in stages. I began by calling Star Seeker/Star Finder, and I called him alone at first. The following represents my present, typical call to Star Seeker, with notes. Facing East, ahem, East-ish.[1] I invoke by the Wyrms that Are Wise. Here, I generally trace and traject/project the two […] … Continue reading…The Guardians: Part Two: Star Seeker
This post begins a series on the Guardians, and this post serves as my overly broad introduction on that topic. My knowledge of the Feri Guardians comes primarily via T. Thorn Coyle, but with some inflection from other sources. I have learned that many Feri initiates considered the Guardians initiatory knowledge, lore only to be shared […] … Continue reading…The Guardians: Part One
Sometimes, aligning works. Othertimes, I feel like I’m pushing against blocks or aren’t connecting. This morning—and I’ve been far better about daily practice than I had a while back—I aligned, and I felt meh about it. I then recalled I wanted to send Y out on business. I began an act of power, and in […] … Continue reading…Practice, The Flow, Trance
[I spoke with Star Seeker about the Guardians.] Where do you come from? SS: We’ve always been here. We’re dragons. We’re the WtaW. I’ve been around since there were tempests and the mind gazing out at itself and eternity. […] We do teach, after all. Shapeshifters, and we know to change ourselves, to look into […] … Continue reading…Star Seeker and Guardians
I—last night was odd, but today was also strange. I felt—I feel that the Otherworlds are closer than ever before, that I am more immersed in them, but also to the near world, into Haisuith. I aligned in my new way, interiorizing it, and I’m still adapting. It feels like I’ve reached some new level, […] … Continue reading…TTL, Dream, Guidance
I started to go into the Dark Wood, which seems brighter and closer now, last night, but I headed towards the cave to TTL. The path to TTL seems to begin on a plain and meadow with some sparse, young trees—grassy fields and maybe scrub—until you start passing larger trees and mounds and small hills. […] … Continue reading…TTL, Golden Dawn Initiation and Soul Work
I rited tonight, and I always underestimate the Guardians until I’m talking to them. BM always leaves me prone because I connect back to her and to the greater realities, but also I reconnect to myself. I disconnect during my day, pull away from the world and, in doing so, I pull away from and […] … Continue reading…The Guardians, Presence, Self-Love
I saw the wind blow oak leaves from trees like a shower of gold in to the autumn sunlight, and I felt panic for the trees, losing so much so fast—I felt sadness that soon the trees would be bare—no soughing, only the wind against my ears—and wonder at the sight of the rain that […] … Continue reading…Old Poetries, Faerie, Finds
I rited last night. Primarily, I wanted to recenter and work on bridging. SS told me that the paths were important and that I should focus on understanding them. ShF and I spoke of the physical component of Presence, and I told him how I’d started to grow more conscious of it at [work]. It […] … Continue reading…Paths, The Shores, Practice Notes