She Continues
[Most recently edited 9 December 2017] I began this blog—as “antiquated” a concept as blogs have become—because a god asked me to do so. So I did. I had been keeping a magical journal (“grimoire” as I pretentiously like to affect to myself—and sometimes here) back at some point prior to 2013. I began in […] … Continue reading…Re-Introduction, Premises, Declarations
It’s night again, early as the year winds down, and I dreamt of new versions of Hardûun: mazes as I tried to avoid killer, demon-possessed robots, but I even went into the maze because I felt I had to. More, I was in space, so there was a nominal dream vacuum outside. But it became […] … Continue reading…Dream & Persistence
It’s Samhain, and I feel a little antsy. I want to have more of a notion what I want to do tonight. Communion with the Otherworlds, for one, but I also want to re-dedicate, if not dedicate myself, to the Path, to bridging, to the relationship I have with the Morrigan and Angus, and to […] … Continue reading…Tall Bright Shapes
When I consider my dreams where I can’t use a weapon, fight, or drive, I wonder—or I have wondered having these dreams of late, if I am frustrated by a lack of perceived power and independence on my part, that I consciously want to ascribe this to some view of how I should be […]. […] … Continue reading…Pop-Culture TV Dreaming, Microcosming, Waymaking
The Otherworlds are still close for me, and I think I want to include Elethis in my pantheon. I moved Angus to the God/secondary position, mostly because, well, why haven’t I? When cycling elthil or working with the Presence, feel the sticky body, feel the aura—don’t just “see” the aura and the cycling. I ventured […] … Continue reading…TOPY, Sex, Entertainment
I read TW+TD #1 & 2 last night, and it put me in a weird headspace. In the glade, the Morrigan came, and we spoke of why people hate and fear Her. She is the aggressive, fey, Otherworldly woman, so men feel ill at ease around Her. More than that, She pushes people beyond what […] … Continue reading…Divinity, Great Work, Libertarian Theology
Last night, I went into the glade, and then into Corunor. I found myself near the cottage again—I’m curious about it apparently, or it’s drawing/luring me. I flew off to the Crow sisters, and they were glad to see me, and everything seemed a bit more clear, more twilight than dark. The woods there remind […] … Continue reading…De Grandis, Grounding, Aligning
My dreams were rich last night—the aquarium dream shows that although mean, aggressive weird fish/demons still lurk within, I’m aware of them far more than I was, and whatever I add or do for my self requires vigilance. And I need to reclaim and reform those “fish”—I shouldn’t want to get rid of them, big […] … Continue reading…Corunor, Shining, Time Lordy Costuming
My tooth is bothering me, making me tense jaw, neck, shoulder, so I’ve been distracted of late. Ritual breathing is problematic to some degree. But I tried to meditate in the glade and Haven last night and early this morning. […] I must, want to master my feelings, that part of what I’m facing is […] … Continue reading…Otherworldly Angst, Feri, Athena
I find it hard to get through movies in theaters these days: the immersive experience leaves me feeling strange and disconnected, like something’s happening that I’m sensing but isn’t there. Goddess—well, the walk was hot but otherwise easy. I spent most of it thinking about body & the Otherworlds. I gave a defixio to the […] … Continue reading…Vocabulary, Action vs. Work, Mysticism vs. Religion