She Continues
My Talker felt the need to list all the things. I had a fascination with, as Marlowe would say, “Lines, circles, scenes, letters, and characters,”[*] but I didn’t really know what to do with any of them. I remember feeling frustrated they weren’t enough, and I think I hoped if I stuck enough in my head somewhere it’d reach some critical symbolic mass. … Continue reading…[Grimoires Intensify]
I fear my pronouns will be all over the place in this one. I suspect they often are anyway. I have thought about how to get at mûl-ôl without the topic derailing and tangenting into half a dozen other topics. If the psychic censor, if halthaya and hurur distract us from the magical and from […] … Continue reading…5: Waking Up
I spend a lot of time passing—passing as a mature, responsible, knowledgeable adult, passing as a professional, passing as normal in all sorts of ways. When people talk about passing, they normally do so in the context of sexuality, gender, and orientation. We hear about people passing as straight or as cis-gendered, and so on. […] … Continue reading…4: Passing as Magical
One of the easiest ways to do magic is to not know you’re doing magic. Of course, such a praxis isn’t terribly pragmatic. Years ago, a former colleague told me that the “magic happens when it needs to happen.” Hell, I remain quite stealthy when I’m not trying to be stealthy. I had a friend […] … Continue reading…2: To Forget Magic—
The premise of magic is much the same as the premise of art—the allure of magic is much the same as the allure of theater and art. Mages imagine some result, some reality they wish to make actual, and they work magic to do so. Playwrights, meanwhile, imagine realities that they make happen—if only onstage […] … Continue reading…1: So Magic—
If Talker mediates our experience of not only ourselves—our identities and our perception of those identities—but also the worlds that we experience, then we should prioritize shaping and weaving Talker to amplify and augment our power-from and our resulting freedom. The psychic censor (or as I’ve come to term it, halthaya, hurur, and mûl-ôl) convinces us […] … Continue reading…Body, Fetch, Talker, God-Self, and: Part 3: Talker Continued
I felt trepidation about Black Mother the first time I called to her, and I felt more trepidation about Fire in the Earth. In hindsight, this trepidation came out of Talker/Dariar and my unconscious resistance to the kinds of transformation Fire in the Earth can cause, will likely cause. I have to admit that T […] … Continue reading…The Guardians: Part Five: Fire in the Earth, Center, and Closing Thoughts
Ivo Dominguez, Jr. in Casting Sacred Space recommends—I’ll call it an exercise—but he recommends engaging in your own mythopoeisis. Write your own myths. Reach inside and articulate your myths. Now, I’ve recently done something similar as a series of trance utterances that remind me of the rune poems—my powers and abilities and tricks and knacks […] … Continue reading…Myth, Belief, Art
I dreamt last night of split souls and doppelgangers—a Carol Danvers analogue going after the actress that plays her (who was Uma Thurman) in a comic book, and a kind of nano-tech/fiber Ultron spreading into people and growing schizophrenic. I suppose I think of it in terms of the second attention being seen as a […] … Continue reading…Split Attentions, Sex, Guides
I rited tonight, and I always underestimate the Guardians until I’m talking to them. BM always leaves me prone because I connect back to her and to the greater realities, but also I reconnect to myself. I disconnect during my day, pull away from the world and, in doing so, I pull away from and […] … Continue reading…The Guardians, Presence, Self-Love