She Continues
I called FitE. So much drama preceded something I should have done long ago. But such is the nature of the will, I suppose. I finished Hine’s book. I have very much been his idea of a chaos mage. SS showed me that [WTAW] responds to meditation—stilling the mind. Rather than the churning chaos it […] … Continue reading…More Fire in the Earth
My visualization skills improve again, and in doing so, I think my energy work improves. If nothing else, aligning the triple soul falls into this work. The specific energies are different— The fire from above is the breath of _____, my connection to the greater cosmos and self, the raw force of potentiality (but not […] … Continue reading…Fire in the Earth, BABALON, towards Chaos
It has been a rough last several days—anxiety mixed with insomnia stemming from muscle issues. Dreaming has been limited. Fear, self-loathing, despair, nihilism, anger & hatred draw me and my mind and soul to imagine all possible bad realities. And they pull me down from whatever height I might aspire to. I must identify and […] … Continue reading…Towards Fire in the Earth
Part of the lesson of [WTAW] and [WTAW] is gendered in nature—learning to be aware of those aspects of myself. But the point I think I have been missing re: [WTAW] is that I cannot dominate or control my wholeness, the waters within. They will escape the vessel, must escape the vessel—the water in the […] … Continue reading…Water Maker & Black Mother