She Continues
I should try to project into dreams I’ve had to try to encourage lucidity. Liminality is always around us—the present always evaporates in the time between past and future. The Celts & company emphasized the liminal in an attempt to push the Otherworlds back towards other spaces and to times & places they couldn’t get […] … Continue reading…Clenchedness, Liminality, Loose Thoughts
I went to the glade last night, and the Morrigan asked me more of my will to magic & power and why I wanted wonders and more. Because I can do so, because I want the Otherworlds and power and freedom, because I defy the limitations of this world on me. She took me to […] … Continue reading…Perfection, Evil, Giants
On the way to work today, I had moments where I thought I could see the Otherworldly influences flowing into and through this realm. This is like an extension of feeling like I’m missing something, and they are still unclear to me. It’s tempting to see those influences in code or arcane symbology terms—but I’m […] … Continue reading…Fetching, de Grandising & Audiencing & Godsing, Grounding
I’ve had the feeling that I’m missing something—something going on around me or in the Otherworlds. Last night I went to the glade, the blue sky peaking [peeking?] through clouds and over the trees that were bare like in late autumn. Elethis rose, of course. I looked, out as I walked about with K, and […] … Continue reading…Phantoms, Internalizing the Otherworlds, Conceiving the World
At the moment, my desire and will feels too ejaculatory, suppressed and under pressure, and I feel unsure how to release, channel, express those forces. My mind wants to run hot & rampant and layer everything with words. I know I overthink and overstress myself in regards to challenges like these—I remember slacking and procrastinating […] … Continue reading…Running Hot, Professional Halthaya, Magic
I did not get the position…, though they apparently “like me.” Whether that translates into anything, we’ll see. I find myself dwelling still on the interview—it’s still fresh—and I do not want to. I think about my spelling for the position and the interview. So I will spell for new opportunities. And I will enjoy […] … Continue reading…Words, Narrative, Magic
I dreamt of resurrecting small animals and stuff last night, and I had spelled for teaching dreams, though I’m not sure what I should learn from that. I feel nervous about tomorrow, but Presence, shadowed gaze, and general mindfulness helps fantastically. My anxiety stems in part from projecting myself into futures (and my anger from […] … Continue reading…Institutional Warding Magic & AOS Aesthetics
K and I looked through he Otherworld through [Elethis] last night—the woods seemed fractal at times, as if I were looking at the same tree & ground around it, with Elethis in the distance. At others, I could pause and try to see more detail, acclimate to the world much as Dunn suggests. Bruce Lee’s […] … Continue reading…Hardening, Softening, Desire, Anger
Lost Watercourses and Resacredization The watercourses of my local landscape were once considered very sacred. The river Ribble was venerated by the Romano-British people as Belisama ‘Most Shining One’ ‘Most Mighty One’. The boundaries of the settlements of Penwortham and Preston were defined by freely flowing streams whose deities would have been regarded as powerful guardian […] … Continue reading…Via Gods & Radicals
Last night I went to the glade, and Odin was there with the Morrigan, and I thanked him for his help & friendship as Authun. I then ventured with the Morrigan to Elethis to med and listen, Silence with the Tree—I dreamt of some general anxious dreams, thinking about the interview & potential job. The […] … Continue reading…Global, TOPY, Gods and Dragons, Feri