She Continues
In the glade, I kept drifting into hypnogogic states as dreams crept in. K thinks I might try riding that rather than fighting it or feeling bad about doing so. I want lucidity, so—also, I haven’t been trying to direct my dreams. I’m still in my houses, rooms, and institutions. Before going down into bed, […] … Continue reading…Matter-Spirit, Imaginary, Paxson, Meander
I went to the glade last night, and the Morrigan asked me more of my will to magic & power and why I wanted wonders and more. Because I can do so, because I want the Otherworlds and power and freedom, because I defy the limitations of this world on me. She took me to […] … Continue reading…Perfection, Evil, Giants
Last night I went to the glade, and Odin was there with the Morrigan, and I thanked him for his help & friendship as Authun. I then ventured with the Morrigan to Elethis to med and listen, Silence with the Tree—I dreamt of some general anxious dreams, thinking about the interview & potential job. The […] … Continue reading…Global, TOPY, Gods and Dragons, Feri
It’s rainy today. I’m having a hard time unwinding at home, med’n before bed, and I feel I’m resisting it before bed. It’s actually easier in the morning, though wondering about work today had me feeling distracted. I think, feel, I should address Elethis more often than I do—that Elethis’s presence represents something more immediate […] … Continue reading…Elethis, Call, Silence
The Otherworlds feel close today, and Elethis clearer and closer, the woods at hand. Last night I mostly chilled. —Nature and the Otherworlds are highly related, and in part, this stems from the Gaia-spirit of life on this world, though the stars and greater universe still have their life processes and dreams. The life of […] … Continue reading…Nature, Softening, Gods
Last night, the Morrigan and I spoke of my Presence in the Otherworlds and here on Earth, that connecting both worlds—Bridging—is important. Otherwise, I experienced odd shifts in scale—growing titanic, Elethis visible, and—well, my godlike potentiality— In invoking [Elethis] I’ve been seeing woods around me, Elethis rising titanic in the distance. These seem thicker, fuller […] … Continue reading…Trance, Social World, Identity, Silence
I left my defixio for my mouth at “Underbridge”—we’ll see how things look soon. Otherwise, I’ve been transcribing old grimoire, the first one, and I’ve been seeing old threads & lessons I keep—well, I’ve relearned with renewing the practice since February. But I’ve also seen that the Dark Host and flesh beasts have been after […] … Continue reading…Defixiones, Community Longings, Otherworldly Journeys, Gods & Earth
Last night, I went to the glade, and the Morrigan was pleased and proud of me. We retired to the haven, and I had some fruit and tea (more rosemary & thyme & other herbs, this time). I’ve had a harder time lately and suspect I’m going through a dry period, with distractions and negative […] … Continue reading…Feri, Aesthetics, Magic
I find it hard to get through movies in theaters these days: the immersive experience leaves me feeling strange and disconnected, like something’s happening that I’m sensing but isn’t there. Goddess—well, the walk was hot but otherwise easy. I spent most of it thinking about body & the Otherworlds. I gave a defixio to the […] … Continue reading…Vocabulary, Action vs. Work, Mysticism vs. Religion
Ravenna in her Morrigan-Raven dance dress touched some part of my touched mind—makes me want to dress like her & join (in the dance) and laugh. I also find myself wanting pagan and fey fellowship and –congress? (community of some kind). But the potential energy of a group—it helps counter halthaya though you must guard […] … Continue reading…The Morrigan, Gods, and Gateway Paradigms & Praxes