She Continues
In Magick Without Tears, Crowley advises to begin memorizing the Qabala while also internalizing and applying it to one’s daily life: There is no better way of training the memory than the practice of the Holy Qabalah. The whole mechanism of memory depends on joining up independent data. You must go on adding a little […] … Continue reading…Body, Fetch, Talker, God Soul, and: Part 4: More about Talker
Old folktales, legends, and myths point to concepts like the Fetch, Doppelganger, and Vardøger and/or Fylgja, and Ka and so forth as supernatural doubles (or attendant spirits) that some people manifest at various points. A corporeal person has a body and a spiritual presence (that they may or may not be aware of). Modern occultism has […] … Continue reading…Body, Fetch, Talker, God-Self, and: Part Two: Fetch and Talker
Many traditions divide the soul/self into a variety of parts, elements, and so on. Those familiar with the GD system know that they adapt and steal a qabalistic model: Neschamah—the highest part of the self, that which the soul aspires towards Ruach—the middle part of the self, that which relates to the mental faculties Nephesch—the […] … Continue reading…Body, Fetch, Talker, God-Self, and: Part One: Introduction & Body & Fetch
In the glade, I kept drifting into hypnogogic states as dreams crept in. K thinks I might try riding that rather than fighting it or feeling bad about doing so. I want lucidity, so—also, I haven’t been trying to direct my dreams. I’m still in my houses, rooms, and institutions. Before going down into bed, […] … Continue reading…Matter-Spirit, Imaginary, Paxson, Meander
On the way to work today, I had moments where I thought I could see the Otherworldly influences flowing into and through this realm. This is like an extension of feeling like I’m missing something, and they are still unclear to me. It’s tempting to see those influences in code or arcane symbology terms—but I’m […] … Continue reading…Fetching, de Grandising & Audiencing & Godsing, Grounding
The Otherworlds are still close for me, and I think I want to include Elethis in my pantheon. I moved Angus to the God/secondary position, mostly because, well, why haven’t I? When cycling elthil or working with the Presence, feel the sticky body, feel the aura—don’t just “see” the aura and the cycling. I ventured […] … Continue reading…TOPY, Sex, Entertainment
Last night, the Morrigan and I spoke of my Presence in the Otherworlds and here on Earth, that connecting both worlds—Bridging—is important. Otherwise, I experienced odd shifts in scale—growing titanic, Elethis visible, and—well, my godlike potentiality— In invoking [Elethis] I’ve been seeing woods around me, Elethis rising titanic in the distance. These seem thicker, fuller […] … Continue reading…Trance, Social World, Identity, Silence
My dreams were rich last night—the aquarium dream shows that although mean, aggressive weird fish/demons still lurk within, I’m aware of them far more than I was, and whatever I add or do for my self requires vigilance. And I need to reclaim and reform those “fish”—I shouldn’t want to get rid of them, big […] … Continue reading…Corunor, Shining, Time Lordy Costuming
Last night, the Morrigan wanted to rite with me, and we rose into the air (under Her power) as we did so. She told me the crow She gave me marks me as one of Hers, and I can use it to pass (mostly) unnoticed. I suspect its sight is less likely to be clouded […] … Continue reading…Reflection, Presence, The Morrigan
I feel as if the demons I’ve identified have started resisting, directing me towards my go-to emotion: anger. But my response to a lot of things has been anger—anger about being lonely, shamed-self-angry— I asked K to keep me out of the rain Friday morning. A lot of my recent energy feels ill-directed and unfocused, […] … Continue reading…Demons, Tree of Life, Presence