She Continues
I returned to the haven last night. She sat me down and told me lessons, but I also had a profound moment where I loved Her as my Mother but also as Lover. […] She taught me to look for the fire in my head, to inflame it once I found and fanned it—for prophesy, […] … Continue reading…Fire in the Head, Geis, Gods
Part of the problem—other than impatience and lack of practice—is that I’m still reintegrating. I’m good at bifurcated awareness, at scrying and being in two places at once, but I’m still a divided spirit. And just as I’ve been by points wary of accepting M, she has reason to be wary of me. We need […] … Continue reading…Identity, Crows, Screens
Last night, I flew to the clouds and lounged with the Morrigan on Elethis, her in her headdress—but I find I can also call such a headdress, which also shadows my sight. [I think the Raven makes this so—] The clouds are the very edges of the Higher Worlds, but I can see the merits […] … Continue reading…Castaneda, Multiverse, All the Corvids!
Last night felt awkward & difficult trying to project into the rath, and after a point, I reasserted my Presence and worked to embrace M with Morrigan’s help. I soared into the clouds, and She came as the Raven or Raven Headdressed, pecking into my side even as we embraced. At the edges of the […] … Continue reading…Shamanic Thingers, Castaneda
In projection, I’ve noticed that when I’m above the clouds with Dana-Morrigan, she either assumes raven form or wears a raven headdress (at least the couple of times we’ve gone so far). She’s been less immediately, or less persistently, “down here” with me, but she’s still present and generally present when I’m projecting. We went—she […] … Continue reading…Trance, Hurur, Thaumaturgy
I don’t walk around much with my full Presence active—I’m too rushing most of the times I’m out (walking to and from work). The notion of invocatory or possessory work with Dana-Morrigan is appealing, but I’m not sure how feasible it might be (or productive depending on what resulted). Relaxing into feyness seemed easy while […] … Continue reading…Presence, Old Journals, Old Dreams
I want to guard against mere obsession about my form and hurur relating to imagining that form. Dana-Morrigan has been testing, poking, prodding about this. I’m at a point where aspects of the Dream and Magic are at hand and even overwhelming or a retreat into fantasy. I think I’m also trying to figure out […] … Continue reading…Play; Die Prufrock Die; Self-Invocation
I’ve been dreading, and dreading just stresses me. To be calm isn’t even difficult—but you have to—engage the world, touch it. Touch and corporeality, inhabiting the landscape and environment. I guess I had this easier in an outdoor environment, away from monitors. Kinesthesia helps ground one and have a Presence. Stress and anxiety forces me […] … Continue reading…Faerie Trance, Self-Possession, Stress Possession
Dana’s names are many, and she reappears in the myths by many names and forms: Morrigan, Macha, Danu, Badb, Anu, Dôn, etc. The rivers, waters, woods, hills, mounts, from Asia (and Africa) to here. She is like Odin in a [“I can be a hungry dragon when I choose”] Way with her names, her children […] … Continue reading…Dana, The Morrigan, Defixiones
Am I worried about being outed? I’ve told _____ and ___, but I suspect they treat the disclosure as a drunken fancy and possibly a veiled joke on my part. That is, not something to take seriously. But I think I want people to think of me as fey—I’d rather I wasn’t discovered, but I’d […] … Continue reading…Identity, Community, Otherworlds